Sunday, August 7, 2011

a tad weepy...

Last Thursday,
one of my little MS nightmares came true...
and I've been a tad weepy
ever since...

I was backing down our driveway
when my right leg cramped!
My foot was on the brake
the way it always is
as I'm backing down...

Our driveway is a bit steep
but I'm quite accustomed to backing out...
I've been doing it for almost ten years now...

So there I was...
in reverse, picking up speed,
foot clamped tightly to the brake
but buzzing madly now...
and my leg cramping
as if someone had rammed a screwdriver
through it...

I reached the bottom
my foot still pressed desperately
into the brake pedal
hitting the retaining wall to my right,
cracking the bumper of the car...

My leg relaxed then...
as suddenly as it had cramped...

I am so careful not to drive
if I have even the slightest inkling
that maybe I shouldn't...

If I've taken headache meds
for several days in a row
I don't drive...

My leg or my foot
cramping while driving
is something that I've worried
myself amply crazy over...

And now it's happened...
I'm a tad weepy...
but not sure why...

I'd like to forget about it...
but I won't...
not my nature...

So, as my friend Annisa says,
it's a sweet warning...

And I can remind myself,
Everything matters, nothing matters very much...

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